Safe travels friends

I've decided there not leaving, I'm staying. Staying, just like always, except it won't be just like always. While it still doesn't sound the way I feel it should, somehow not having the word "leaving" there feels better. Today is making me want to paint all the furniture and walls white. Leave the accent colors to Hot Wheels and books. A clean slate where no feelings can lurk in the distraction. They will be back soon, sooner that I think. But our children will be older, bigger, faster, smarter...new.